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January 05, 2004

some days it's like the world is turned upside down and sideways. like doing a handstand for a really long time. you kind of want to press your whole body to the ground to hold on. it's sort of one of those days today.

it could just be going back to work after weeks off (ie lack of napping). it could be that's it's just colder than bejesus outside and has been for ages and there's a pile-o-snow coming tonight. it could be any number of external factors.

it could be because i miss certain things in my life. not that i'm not glad for what has filled in the gaps, but i'm having one of those 'i can't let my life slip by like this' sort of days. it puts fear and panic into my gut. pay attention, i tell myself. tomorrow it will be 5 years later.

there are things i miss about living in california (nothing enough to do it again), i miss academia and having a good useless discussion about literature. i know i've said this before, and not all that long ago. perhaps it's just finding the people that are having those discussions. either that or make some lame attempt to keep up with caterina's reading list. i dunno. it's just a specific intellectual (in the broadest sense) itch.

someone at work today mentioned something from NPR about making a NOT To Do List. i like that idea. even if you don't do the to do stuff, at least keep out the crap. yep, my motto for 2004: KEEP OUT THE CRAP.

which illuminates rather clearly why i need to be reading well written and thoughtful books. and maybe one on grammar.

Posted by rosebaby at January 05, 2004 05:21 PM