December 02, 2003
catching up with the last month of douglas (since he and the missus just moved to portland! whee!) i note a couple of things. 1) any hope of knowing a bunch of stuff about music dissipates quickly when reading what he writes. the man is a walking encyclopedia of modern music. 2) i'm not nearly as literary as i used to be and it bothers me.
i need that part of things. yes, certainly more creative in other ways, graphic design stuff has taken over the lit brain cells, but i need to make nabakov references, or remember marxist economics, or laugh like a lunatic over something in faulkner, or remember the elaborate comparison i did of emerson/whitman/sullivan/wright at some point in the past.
i just want to feel challenged, to sit quietly and discuss proust with the earnestness of my 20's.
this will be the basis of any future mid-life crisis. and it's what makes me fear aging. i don't want to become a potted plant.
on the other hand, life is far far better in general now than it was when i was having those very earnest lit discussions in college.
Posted by rosebaby at December 02, 2003 12:45 PM