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April 15, 2003

muscle relaxants are good. for the first time in weeks my shoulder isn't killing me. the spinal xrays were cool, i need to find a way to get a copy.

anyway. along with daylight comes inspiration, along with inspiration come dilemmas, along with dilemmas come reflection, along with reflection comes understanding.

as i've said before there are deep continental shifts in my life happening. maybe no one else will notice. but things are very different from what they were a year or two ago. i think about the things i've wanted to do and haven't, wonder what would have happened if i had done some of them. i've been lucky, i enjoy the people, creatures, and things in my life, but does that mean i'm old and boring?

there it is. that's the major dilemma right now.

Posted by rosebaby at April 15, 2003 09:45 PM

 

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Old and boring never, sweetie. And it's never too late to throw everything away and do something absolutely crazy. And ain't nothing wrong with doing things on a less throwing-away and crazy scale, either.

Posted by: yukino on April 15, 2003 11:33 PM

well, it gets harder to throw everything away once there's a mortgage and pets (thankfully no kids). which is good and bad. on the other hand, i could probably sell the house and live in a motorhome for a long time on the proceeds. :)

Posted by: rosebaby on April 16, 2003 11:00 AM

Enjoying your life doesn't mean you are old and boring, and you are neither, anyway. When you are happy like that fighting complacency sometimes seems like a constant battle, though, at least for me.

You made me think of a fIREHOSE song, Perfect Pairs:

with the message comes pain
with the dreams come sadness
with the emptiness comes reality
staring me in the eye
with the contact comes questions
with the love comes pain
with confusion comes the hate
clear as a bell
with the time comes the answer
with the knowledge comes the end
with the conclusion comes the sanity
(just a little bit too late)

Posted by: michael on April 16, 2003 01:50 PM

michael, the fact that you'll still say nice things after i was so whiny last time i saw you (or at least at the end) is lovely. :)

i like those lyrics, i'll have to look for that.

Posted by: rosebaby on April 16, 2003 02:06 PM

I don't remember you being whiny. Huh.

Posted by: michael on April 16, 2003 05:39 PM

Spinal xrays!? Scary...

We have copies of Clyde's last xrays--very dramatic, showing all the hardware, screws and what not. Somewhere along the way we lost the MRIs, though, which is too bad. Those were really a trip.

fIREHOSE. YAY!

Posted by: Ciam on April 17, 2003 09:40 AM

I like the line about "deep continental shifts," very tektonic, as though one's own geography were not-so-subtly rearranging itself, but all on the inside, new fault lines being created, rivers learning to run the other way. Sounds very exciting.

Posted by: Steve on April 17, 2003 07:22 PM