yesterday a friend called me a frontier wife. last night a different friend and i agreed that doing the housewife gig might not be so bad afterall and maybe we were all a little bit wrong about that being a bad thing.

i think what it boils down to is that after working since i was 15, taking some time off to be a mom, and just kind of being home is pretty great. it does however push all my nesting buttons all the time. most of the time all i want to do is bake and garden and knit and take walks with the small person. the reality is that i have to work while he sleeps and then some, and in the evenings i'm pretty exhausted.

still.

all this sun makes me want to work in the yard and get it cleaned up and ready for spring. a new cast iron pan came in the mail yesterday so i'm itching to make something that requires a cocotte-ish type vessel. braised lamb shanks are speaking to me.

i do wish the two year old would eat more variety so i wasn't cooking two dinners every night.

i could read food and design blogs all day to boot. and there are little chickadees that come in a procession all day to the window birdfeeder.

time goes past, i'm not out in the "real world" too much. and while i do feel like some parts of my life are now gone forever, i do like this peaceful place. i'm going to try to enjoy it while i can, soon enough the small person will be in preschool and then school proper and i'll be back to working out there. for now the days slip by with few markers, it's beautiful out and it's all just fine.