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i have been in a funk the last couple of days. i'd like to blame it on something, anything, but it's probably just me. i feel very.... separate. from everything.

but somehow, some little part of me feels like these would make it at least a little better.

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still recouperating, listening to good radio from other states (KCRW), generally enjoying the sun shining, i had a pang. one of those pangs where you realize something has changed. one of the songs that was on reminded me of something else. the something else was something that would have normally put me into a mood of longing and angst. i spent so many many years embracing that indefinite and shifting yearning - and i realize now it's gone. it was such a comfortable friend. most frequently it was tied to some impossible version of distant love based on a made-up reality in my head. but it could be about all kinds of things. but it was the kind that could cause a tightening in your chest, or a good sunday afternoon paralyzing pyschic ache.

it doesn't work anymore. i've lost my angst. and i have a little angst about that.

it's not that i'm all flowers and cute japanese toys now. it's just that my own particular brand of sunday ache is gone. it snuck out the door. there are still things that consume me. i still want to make a difference, although perhaps on a lesser scale than in my 20's (on the other hand, in my 20's my head was up my ass). i worry about love, but i worry most not that i will find it (got that covered in a glorious way) but that i am taking care of it enough. i want us both to be happy, really happy, and also continue to grow and bloom. i want us to be amazing people in our own way, and to feel complete, cared for, creative, appreciated and encouraged.

i miss that in a way. life changes though. i feel lucky. i have a good life. wanting that back would be like wanting to go back to being 15. and i think most people leave that angst much earlier in their life than i did. for the most part i'm more comfortable these days, in my body, in my head. i don't want to be 15 again. i don't want to be 25 again either. i guess i'm ok where i am.

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the really horrendous cold/flu thing going around has landed at chez talkingcrow with a thud. b and i are both soudly ill. the beautiful part of that is that the only way to avoid worse pain is when i start coughing is to hold my left knee up to my chest. so attractive.

but i like yarnstorm's description better. her daugher is sick, or as one might say in the UK: "...a poorly girl who is off school with a throat infection".

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Four jobs I've had:
- Tour Bus Driver / Tour Guide (in Alaska, was also being a radio DJ at the time)
- Recycle Sorter (part of a larger job of combo-wage-slave also driving a handicapped shuttle and working in a motorpool office with legally insane people)
- Medical Collections (calling people on welfare bugging them to pay their bills. not a highlight)
- Product Designer at a large software company.

Four movies I can watch over and over:
- Moulin Rouge
- Diva
- Bridget Jones Diary (just being honest, I've seen it many times, could watch it daily)
- Wizard of Oz

As opposed to movies I've seen 20-30 times, such as Buckaroo Bonzai and Monty Python and the Holy Grail.

Four places I have lived:
- Southern California - LA county
- Southern California - Orange county
- Alaska - Ketchikan
- Seattle

Four television shows I love to watch:
- Lost
- Project Runway
- Survivor (I don't exactly love it, but it's a bit of a ritual now)
That's all I watch consistently, but I can enterain myself for many hours with HG TV. And I did like the one episode of #1 Single that I saw.

Four places I have been on holiday:
- Paris
- Istanbul
- Helsinki
- New York

Four of my favourite dishes:
- tomatoes/basil/fresh mozarella
- thanksgiving turkey and mashed potatoes
- pasta with peas/prosciutto/cream sauce
- anything with caramel

Four websites I visit daily:
- whipup
- yarnstorm
- gmail & my google page with many RSS feeds
- flickr

Four places I would rather be right now:
rather is a relative term, since i'm in the perfect place (home, next to B, surrounded by the furry kids)
- lopez island with B and the dog (or anywhere with B and the dog)
- northern california coast,
- hanging out with grace, wherever but hawaii wouldn't suck
- ireland (no specific idea why, that just happens to be my mood)

Four bloggers I am tagging:
ehhh. everyone has done this. B doesn't have a blog proper, but i'll lob towards:
meg
douglas
david
shelley

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the management has been going on about his (pork) butt, and sent examples of other people cooking their butts similarly. so, as i type this, my butt is braising in milk.

i'll stop with that now. but it's true that this recipe has been an ongoing topic around the ranch, and also that i currenty am attempting it, the crockpot is doing it's slow-cooker thing.

and in ongoing whining, or pending lack thereof, i promise to not whine about my backpain anymore if this effin' cough would go away! jaysus. it's really a horrid cough up your lungs and shake the windows kind of thing. i feel good oher than the perpetual near-puking coughing. i will be good. please g*d. granted pork with milk is about as un-kosher as you get, although i've never been jewish. and i'm not much of anything, and i don't believe in G-g*d. so that's probably not going to work, but i'll throw it out there. please just make the frogs go away.

it's a gorgeous day and i'm watching it from inside. bleh. bleh.

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In the Beginning, the quilting shop on Lake City Way, for those of you in Seattle, is going out of business after 28 years. Right now the sale is 25% off of everything. Aside from fabric, there are lots of goodies like beautiful Fiskar scissors. I think they're going to keep dropping prices as time goes by. Lots of great stuff.

Masie Plum and i went by there yesteerday. Lots of stuff still left!

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many years ago, when my job happened to involve planes and monster trucks, and we had been playing multiplayer monster truck madness in the afternoon before leaving work, i would get in my car and feel very inclined to drive fast and not concern myself with what i hit. completely like living inside a racing game. you get immersed in it and then go into the real world and it carries over.

so last night, i had that moment again. my job current involves maps. lots of them, interesting ideas about them, maps maps maps maps maps. it's really fun. but i was getting on the freeway, and as i turned, thinking about the signal light timing i had the strangest and very real sensation of "i'm driving in a MAP". that might seem crazy, or obvious, but it was a very odd feeling. just like the weird monster truck euphoria of days of old.

more strange, this month marks my 10th year here. minus about a year of freelancing. but monster trucks and planes began in 1996. when i was the first one in the entire business unit to be hired to spend *all my time* working on web stuff. if i want to be big headed about it, i can say that now hundreds of people do the job i used to do. hahaha. i'm sure they'd all appreciate me seeing it that way.

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