sometimes i have these semi anxiety attacks. it's not like some people have them, or at least based on those i know who do. grace and i were talking the other night about waiting for real life to start. we're both over the age of 19 and have no good excuse for this thought pattern. but that's sometimes what happens. i feel like that. the voices are saying WOMAN WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE? and oddly that's not entirely about career (i love what i do in general) although it could be about career. i've been doing web design for a really long time, at least in terms of web. sometimes i think i could just go be a house painter or a girl electrician, or something weird (ok, that has a lot to do with the bathroom remodel) but if i could go back and do it all over again i would really really like to have not had my head up my butt when i was 20. i would go back, i would stay focused on architecture and design (the only thing i every really wanted to be, from the age of about 3, was an architect) and not quit school for lame reasons, i would tell my younger self about all the goodness that is creativity. (i did go back to college much later, but not in architecture, i ended up with a degree in my 2nd choice - literature).
but you know, it's ok, i know stuff now. i have a perpetual creative storm going on in my head. it only really bothers me (and it does bother me) that it doesn't make it out of my head too much of the time. this bothers me most right after the caffeine kicks in and i am pretty sure i can rule the world (i'm currently well in to a nice cup of trader joe's italian roast).
so, you may ask, what's with the rant? i love design stuff. i get totally lost in my own head, suddenly hours later. i wish i had a furniture and lighting design thing going on, or if not that, some variant of about 4,000 other ideas that i have. really. all the time.
in the last few days i've found a couple new sites (which i have to rip myself away from to work), kinda like designsponge. this sort of stuff gets me all in a twist. i have an ongoing conversation with myself along the lines of 'if so and so can use x material for that, you could certainly come up with a really fantastic thing too, and then you start production, and it will sell well and you will end up creatively satisfied and on the pages of some designporn site.'
anyway. for your pleasure, a couple of new (and newish) ones: swissmiss, inhabitat, designspotter, mocoloco, and we make money not art. and if you run out of stuff on those, just start following their source links or head to the usual suspects.
thank god for coffee.