we're 4 coats (2 primer, 2 paint) into this color and have to buy more. it's all because the hallway was previously a very bad pine green.

i'm not sure what it is lately. i probably just need to sit in our new yellow hallway a lot more (sort of a color version of S.A.D.), but the littlest things unbalance me. what i should tell a therapist is that the veneer is thin and growing thinner. i'm at a loss, i don't know how. i can't crawl out. and i have to never think about it or else the world crumbles. even now, i must stop. leave the building, become distracted. i really don't know how. i've tried. it's not working. and it's closing in.

don't worry, i'm fine (at least on some days).

cheery me.