this morning the sunrise was an intense orange. it was beautiful, and something i rarely see. i like more sleep than that. but this morning the alarm clock was set for 6:10, so i could call my mom or my brother to check on dad. he goes in for another surgery today, well, he's probably in now. they work on his heart, in hopes of balancing and managing the problems.

here is my weird confession. when the time comes, i do want to see the ghost of my father saying goodbye. i just really don't want to see that any time soon.

think good things. i appreciate it.